There are over 7,700 graduates. Sheesh.

I’ve been staying with my cousins for the past week or so since I really haven’t had to work much. About twenty minutes ago, my auntie (that I live with) stops by to say hey since she’s only seen me once since last Sunday. I knew something wasn’t quite right she sat down right next to me and there’s tons of space in this basement. She then proceeds to tell me that we may living with fans for the next couple of months since our air conditioner broke recently and it’ll cost two grand to get fixed which she doesn’t have right now. Before my mind can process the fact that it’s gonna be literally hot as hell, she tells me that she may be leaving for Saudi Arabia or Afghanistan in August for her job. Of course, she’s volunteering to go. Nothing is official yet, but if she passes her physical exam then she’ll be returning next August. 

The first thing that I blurt out is well what am I gonna do? She asked me if I can stay alone in our house for an entire year. She wants to rent out our house for the time she’s gone and is gonna use the money to keep up the house as well as pay for my college tuition.

I feel really selfish right now. I’m over here thinking about what I’ll do once she’s gone and she’s thinking about my future. I’ll suck it up though. If she goes oversees, I won’t have to worry about how to pay for school and will be able to go full-time without having to work which is amazing! I’ll miss her along with my cousin who is also going to the middle east in August. 

It’s slowly hitting me now that I’m an adult. I no longer have anyone to pick me up if I fall and kiss my boo boos letting me know everything is okay. Wow, I’m 22. I have shit to do. I refuse to be dependent on my family for the rest of my life. Welcome to the real world Britt.